promises...are suppose to be followed through...yet sometimes they're broken soo easily.

i really want a relationship with someone...but that's a lil too hard to ask for in this world. i'm tryin to hang with different crowds in school.

which will probably end up getting my ass kicked but i'll try and hold my own.

and i almost ot mine kicked today for no freaking reason too! just me goofing off with my friensd and i get called a name...i flipped the girl off and she said "F*UCK WITH ME" like she was ready to fight.

me? i can fight worth shit, i need someone to teach me how to hold my own against people and fight back if needed. all i know is that im suppose to be feeling better after my pour out to one of my youth leaders.

right now im tryin to cope with Chris's death, and if you dont know who Chris is, he was my love. my first real true love! i meet him a long time ago, me and him were made for each other. one night he told me he had lung cancer, a couple days later he died. then his best friend told me how he died, i'm gonna spare you from the graphic details...